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Well I had my mammogram and ultrasound today and the doctor said that my lumps had not changed in size (just have to check it once a year) and starting IVF again should not be a problem at all!!!! So hubby and I called our ivf clinic up to get everything started Dec 1st since the last of the meds we needed we are buying tomorrow! We are so excited to get this going again so for now we are waiting a call back from the IVF nurse to find out when we need to start taking the birth control again.  I believe in would put the transfer in Feb which works out great for us since hubby’s job says no PTO till Feb due to holidays. Hope everyone is having a wonderful day!

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So it has been a while since I have written, I just haven’t known what to write.  I have to many thoughts and feeling going on inside me that I’m not sure how to get in order and deal with them. I’m so scared that I missed my shot with having a baby.  We keep saying we will try IVF again but road blocks keep popping up.  To many medical issues decided to pop up together, so many that I feel like my love ones think im a hypochondriac, the fact is I have had to fight for so long to have a doctor actually look past the fact that I’m fat to see that my pain and many other symptoms are not because I’m fat. So 2 years ago a doctor finally decided to run blood tests and finally they saw that I wasn’t faking, ever since then a lot of issues just go wrong.  I have doctors who are mad at me because I refuse treatment to try to have a baby and tell me to just call them up when I am ready to start getting better again. But I’m dealing with it, yes I have horrible pain everyday and fatigue, but I manage. But now I am freaking out along with my husband because we had a few people tell us that we really should get the breast lumps checked for cancer before we start IVF again because the of estrogen shot or something like that can make it grow faster. I am already scheduled for a mammogram in Dec since I now have to have a mammogram twice a year. I thinking about just asking them to biopsy the damn lumps already so maybe I can have some peace of mind. I don’t know why they haven’t already done so since the lumps  have grown and the breast density has changed. You know the sad thing is all I can think of if it is cancer is we have already spent $4,000 of IVF meds that will expire way before we will be able to use them! plus I feel like unless we adopt we wouldn’t be able to have a baby.

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I am so overwhelmed right now, we are still trying to gather up all the meds for our next ivf cycle. The last check this month we will be getting another follistim 🙂 then nothing till last check in Nov… So I am dealing with my depression with doesn’t look like it will be letting up anytime soon, It is like everything hit me all at once again, My traumatic past, my miscarriages, new health problems and that my only ivf cycle was canceled.  I feel like I let my husband down once again.  Like everything I did  (getting my A1C down to a 5.6 and losing 50lbs) was for nothing ( I know it wasn’t though).  Then I have the Fibromyalgia and Seronegative Rheumatoid Arthritis which leads to a whole lot of extreme pain in different areas in my body day-to-day, with extreme fatigue and flu-like symptoms. It’s like you are coming down with the flu everyday but you never get the flu so never get over the flu… Then the last health problem for me is 2 years ago I had a tiny abnormal lump found in my left breast did an ultrasound and talked to a specialist who said he thought I had a 99.8% chance of it not being cancer, So I went along with it a year later a doctor decided to get a mammogram done on it and once again they said it’s probably not cancer so lets wait and see if it grows. So we moved and got set up with new doctors and had another mammogram done now that tiny lump is not tiny anymore (not huge either but big enough now that I can really feel it plus the results showed that it grew plus another abnormal lump in my right breast plus the density of both has changed…. they said we still think it’s probably not cancer but now we want to have you to do 2 mammograms a year instead of the normal once a year. by the way I’m only 31 dammit! I tried talking to a few about it, who in the end told me to not worry, because it’s normal “every woman goes through this”.  Every woman does have to get mammograms after the age 40, 1 time a year yes and a lot of women find a lump at least once in a life time most of which are NOT abnormal. I can’t get my mind off of it recently and my next mammogram isn’t till Dec. 😦  My father in law also came home from the hospital a few weeks ago after having his leg below the knee removed due to a really bad infection.  So it hurts to see him have to go through all the PT and home nurse visits though he is doing so much better now though.  Jason has entered the  holiday season at his job which means I never see him any more. I just really do feel so overwhelmed with everything.  Sorry this post is all negative hope everyone else has a wonderful day.

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I have to run my father-in-law up to the doctor this morning he’s ok just routine. but he’s appt is at 10:10 and this new OB-GYN was able to get me in today also at 11:45 now his doctor is typically pretty good time wise so we will see other  wise I will have to leave in the middle of the appt  to go to mine and then head back to him. My IVF nurse called me last night telling me my old OB-GYN still hadn’t faxed the ultrasound results! she is going to try them again this morning to see if she can get the results yet again. she did get the blood results I forgot what she called it but she said they like to see it at 68 and my is at 70 so not bad but she can’t tell me if I can decrease dose till she has the ultrasound. so I’m switching OB-GYN this was a last straw for me. even before I started the IVF it was like pulling teeth to get anything done or get any results. and they still didn’t call with abnormal results.  I had to go get another mammogram in june this year cause in june 2011 they found an abnormal lump in left.  So they sent me down and the breast center I went to was the person to call me to tell me that I now have an abnormal lump in both and the breast density has change from  cat. 1 to cat 2. when I called the ob-gyn they said no everything looks normal?!?! I then asked  why is it i have to get 2 mammograms a year now when most women have to get 1 a year, she tells me she doesn’t know and everything is normal… as of right now they are deeming it not cancer but I now have to up my mammograms to 2 times a years just in case. so now I’m switching and praying this one is much better and more caring. I miss my Corpus Christi OB 😦 he was great!  😦  so this new one says they will be able to run my same day labs with no problems and have worked with my IVF doctor before! that will be so great if they can I wont have to drive 5 hours every other day.  but if my nurse doesn’t get the  results this morning I will have to go in and try to get them in person so that I can do their jobs for them.  just 2 more days and hubby gets home and I wont have to deal with all this on my own any more.

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